RECORD STORE TALES #1078: Walking and Rocking for Mental and Physical Health
A Tribute to the Arkells
2023 is the summer of my plans going out the window, and having to come up with new ones! Without naming names and rehashing stories, it was a spring of broken trust turning into a summer of betrayal. But I had been walking, to lose weight and get some sun. It was working. Just because I was devastated didn’t mean I should stop. Now more than ever I kept pushing forward, honouring the commitments I made to both of us.
Promises were broken but I kept walking. Every day at lunch, I did four kilometers. I walked the same route. I sang songs. I recorded videos. At this point, I dove hard into the Arkells. The High Noon album started it, before I even bought any other Arkells. I needed something Canadian that didn’t remind me of the before-fore times. I craved something upbeat that wouldn’t bring me down. I was feeling pop rock, and the Arkells delivered.
Even though the lyrics had nothing to do with my situation, my interpretation of them was somewhat personal.
“Oh you’re just a boy, a little banker boy, everything’s a game and everyone’s your toy. While everyone was sleepin’, dreaming dumb-ass dreams, you’re praying to gods who’re meaningless to me. You’re preying on the weak, and those who don’t believe. Oh, it’s nothin’ but Fake Money…”
This verse hit me immediately! I imagined who Max Kerman could have been singing about. A man with his Christianity, putting money first over anything else. It seemed to fit. The lyrics kept hitting. Track two, “Come to Light”:
“It’s been a tough go lately, I hate choosin’ sides, what we do in the darkness comes to light alright.”
Another line that hit home for me. For me to tell my story, I would have to shed light on things I had kept quiet. But I had to choose sides, and the side I chose was my own.
“The words hit me hard, like a one-two punch.”
From the start, I had fear. When my fears were confirmed to be true, the words hit me hard like a one-two punch. Others saw through it all along. I hated to admit they were right.
So I walked, and I sang the words. I soothed my own soul, kilometer after kilometer, while leaning on my true friends. I wore out that record. I needed more. I asked around, and bought Michigan Left and Morning Report. The unending positive feeling of the melodies kept me going, even as my walking route became overly familiar and monotonous. I needed more Arkells. In time, my new purchases began to resonate as much as High Noon had on my walks. “Does he hit you?” asked Max Kerman in “Coffee”, and I wondered that myself.
Suddenly, several lyrics from the song “Hung Up” jumped out at me!
“Motherfuckers keep me guessing, they’re holding onto their job. They don’t know what they’re protecting, and actin’ like they got robbed.”
That felt true. That felt very true.
But this was the bit that really applied to my life:
“You got no love (no!), you got no compassion (no!), you fuck up my day, you fuck up my night. So I’ll be outside, back in the alley, I’ll be takin’ a piss on your door. ‘Cause it’s these gatekeepers who’re keeping me out, let me in! Who made you the president, well fucker?”
I leapt out of my seat when I first heard that chorus about the “gatekeepers”! In a sense, with my shitposting, that was me outside back in the alley, taking a piss on their door…the lyrics just worked!
So I walked, and I walked, and I walked. I sweated, I lost weight and I felt better doing it. Sometimes I recorded messages, messages that I never sent. Messages with varying themes. Some were intended as goodbyes, others as re-opening doors. In the end, I probably recorded 100 messages that I never sent.
But now…
Now I’m feeling a lot better, but the memories of those walks…the pain…the messages never sent…they all come back to me when I’m on my route. I work in an industrial area, and there aren’t a lot of great places to walk. But I need to get back on the saddle and keep it going. I need to change my scenery and put the past behind me for good. I’m physically in much better shape now. I’m mentally rising above it. But I can’t rest on my laurels.
I need to keep at it. Summer is not over yet. I need to get back to it. The Arkells served their purpose. They got me this far. I need new music, new bands and especially a new route. Every time I pass certain landmarks, I think to myself, “I remember recording this message here…” and I don’t want those reminders. I want to keep walking, forwards!
We don’t give up and we don’t give in.
Thank you to my true friends who keep me rocking.
She knew what she did was wrong. She knew we could have just talked.
“Without naming names and rehashing stories, it was a spring of broken trust turning into a summer of betrayal.”
How many times do I have to apologize for borrowing your hedge trimmer without permission?
:D <3
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It’ll never be enough! LOL
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I mean, if you need new music there’s always my newest album if you want ;)
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I’m looking for very specific sounds… something pop/rock with very Canadian lyrics and fortunately Arkells have a new one next month.
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I’M WALKING HERE!!! Keep it up!!
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Question: What is that a quote from? I know it from Rick & Morty….
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Midnight Cowboy
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And now I know!!!
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Just watched the scene!
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Watch the movie too. It’s great.
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Ok fine.
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Twisting your arm to watch a classic. I figured you’d have seen it because of Faith No More.
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I don’t even recall being curious just based on the title! I hated Travolta’s Urban Cowboy which automatically made me avoid all cowboy related movie titles going forward. The Cowboy Way did not help things.
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Drugstore Cowboy is a great movie too.
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You got me to watch Eraserhead so nothing is impossible.
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You watched Eraserhead? I didn’t know that! What did you think?
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I thought it was interesting and tense but extremely difficult.
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That’s a fair interpretation!
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I watched it a month or two after your review so not recently. Incredible but disturbing.
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Definitely abstract! I’m glad you watched it. I hope you got something out of it.
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I did. An appreciation for the abstract. That a movie doesn’t have to spell it out for you.
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That scene was improvised. Dustin Hoffman wasn’t supposed to almost get hit by that car, he really was almost hit by that car.
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I love Hoffman. Big time. I’m not sure about his walking here… almost looks like he’s dancing.
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I like Hoffman too.
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I even liked Outbreak. Helluva cast.
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keep walking and rocking…
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I will. I need to. You are setting the good example. I need to keep this up. Can’t let myself fall again.
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Listening to tunes while walking is my therapy. Blood moving to the beat.
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Body movin’. Gotta keep the mind off the shit!
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Exercise is THE GREAT therapy. Even better for me is to hike on a trail close to running water. When I feel my anxiety ramping up, I say “gotta go!” and step outside for a brisk walk. It is a savior!
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I’m going to get back on the saddle with 2k today. Nowhere nice to hike near work. It’s all industrial with some residential.
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Yeah, that blows. But, get some tunes on your phone and giv’er!
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I can’t listen on a phone. No earphone jack. Must sing only.
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