I didn’t plan on writing anything on this subject until next year, but here goes.
First of all: Thank you.
Thank you for reading and following for the last 5 ½ years. Thank you for your comments, your emails, and in some cases your valued friendship!
Thank you for joining me as we talked about music and all sorts of miscellaneous tangents. Thanks for sharing your points of view! Thank you for being interested enough to read about my life at the Record Store, and after.
This is where we get serious.
A few weeks ago, my wife the incredible Mrs. LeBrain was diagnosed with cancer. This is on top of her major, decade long struggle with epilepsy. It feels like another kick in the shins. We made some major progress on the epileptic seizures this year, but now we have this new setback.
I’m not going to get into the details, except to say that right now, we are told the prognosis is good. That doesn’t mean there isn’t fear, or pain. Pain exists daily for her, and fear is probably right there with it. She has a fighting attitude. We both do. In my role as supporter, it’s my job to keep her going. It’s a role I wouldn’t trade with anyone else. We are all dealt different cards in life. I’ve been a supporter for a long time now. It’s not an easy job, but I have a gift for it, I guess.
Being a supporter might not be as difficult as being the one with cancer, but it does require time, and lots of energy. I talked about having writer’s block a few weeks back. I expect that there will be times in the weeks to come where I won’t have any energy to write.
I know you understand that. I know there’s no pressure to write every day, except the pressure I put on myself. And Jen has put no pressure on me to cut back or do less writing.
I continue to write because I feel good doing it. I have been a creative personality for as long as I can remember. Writing about what I love – music – brings me great happiness. It helps me forget, for a short while, the real struggle of our lives. Reading your comments is its own form of joy. After all, writing is only half of the equation if nobody is there to read it.
Again – thank you for reading. You probably didn’t know that it pumps me up, like fuel injection. The first thing I do every morning is read the comments.
Because even the supporter needs to take care of themselves, I continue to do what I do. I must do what makes me happy. I don’t plan on stopping for this. As much as I love to write for you, I do it mostly for me.
There are going to be times when I’m too tired physically, mentally or emotionally to work. There may be some days with no new content. I’ve been having trouble dedicating time to finishing the KISS Re-Review Series. Now you know why.
This is not going to stop us. We have the best medical team, and family to support us. We have friends who have offered to be there with us in this fight. I’m confident we are going to beat this. I’m looking forward to getting it all behind us.
We have a busy schedule in the coming weeks. Lots of appointments and tests and travel. If I miss a day, or two, or three, don’t worry. It’s just us taking on a bigger challenge, together as a team like always. But when we beat it, and I’m sure it’s “when”, I know you’ll still be here.
Thank you for your support. When I feel we have something to update, I’ll let you know how it’s going. Until then, stay safe and healthy this season. We have the upcoming Christmas bounty, and all the year end lists to look forward to. Please continue to join me as we rock and roll all nite (and part of every day).
Fuck you, cancer!